Take A Look At Me Now

I was thinking of this song. I like this particular video, you should watch it. [link] I love the song.
It is how I feel when I get a good friend on DA and they leave and I lose contact with them..it leaves an empty space. I am missing quite a few people lately, some left many months ago. I won't forget them.
One friend of mine is considering leaving. I dont want to cause embarrassment by saying who it is, but if you see it, you know who you are. Hope you don't leave.

I am having a bit of a hard time lately, so the smiles don't come easy. I am so thankful for my friends here on DA, it would be so much harder without you..

I dont like my face, I guess a lot of that is due to how I was treated as a kid (bullys and my Dad) but it is good for me to "face" up to reality.
I remember for the first month or so I was on DA, I used a Godzilla portrait as my ID, then a pencil drawing of myself I did in college, and finally I put up my photo. I was kind of proud of myself for doing it, it was a big step for me. So, anyway, I pointed the camera at myself just this morning, this is as recent as it gets.^^
Maybe I will do a self portrait someday and use this as a reference. Good therapy maybe?
Thank you to those of you that know what I look like, and still like me. I wish I was able to see myself like I see others. I see beauty in everyone else but me. Maybe some day...